school?

Faheem a month older today.Its very important for me to note this as i usually keep track what Faheem has accomplished within a month.He has already started toilet training,which is quite a relief,but many a time he does tell me he has to go once he is already over and done with.He help me clean by bringing a couple of tissue paper and wiping it off.I never ever thought he would do such a thing,I hope he keeps improving.

the last two weeks have been bad for Faheem.He started stimming so vigorously..and the look in his eyes.I went crazy...i just couldn't crying.What had happened...EVERYTHING WAS GOING SO WELLHe didn't even want to be hugged by me.The therapists said he was acting out and 'defining himself as an individual'.Well,she told me to bring him for long walks in different lanes and engage himcontinuosly with different things everyday...and the television has to be off...PERIOD.It really makes faheem zombie like.

I did what ever the therapists told me respectively and the stimming has reduced sizeably.But i have to still work on his attention span.

Another friend of mine told me that faheem needed his faeces to be checked..children like faheem do have what they call a leaky gut.So that does make sense...will be doing that soon.

Some times i feel that i am not doing enough for Faheem.When i see other parents in my situation and even worse conditions work so hard in 'reviving' their children back into our world,i suddenly feel my efforts are so miniscule.God pls give me strength to be strong and work hard for my one and only.

Meanwhile the therapist says its time to put faheem in a school,since Faheem looks like he needs a change in enviroment and he does look like he wants to get to know children his age.After being rejected a couple of times,i lack the confidence..i know i shouldn't..but i do.I was always the one to suggest to people with children to put their children in school as soon as a year old...and i myself didn't follow my own advise.I think i should jst keep quiet now,when it comes to educating children.Whatever the odds were i brought faheem to a free daycare,and he sat there quite peacefully with me and shook hands with everyone i told him to AND made good eye contact(smile).But today he was not that eager.The daycare is in the mall...n there is too much of distraction.Nevertheless i will try again..when he is good and comfortable i will take him to sekolah bonnas which located as near to the daycare.Lets see.